OK, so I won’t beat around the bush. Let’s get to what everyone is very interested in. The weigh in! I hit a milestone today. 50 lbs gone! That is a third of what my doctor says I could lose in a year! It really did motivate me to do better. I expect the next week will not be ask good, because I think I was a bit dehydrated and had lost a lot of blood (that issue I said I was having…yea, girl problems. Sorry guys!) I suspect a pound or two may have been from all that. But, luckily all is well again with my body and I am feeling so much better. Got to get back to walking. I was going to tonight, but it was raining. Guess I need to invest in a good umbrella.
If you are trying to achieve, there will be roadblocks. I’ve had them; everybody has them. But obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.Michael Jordan
As I sat here tonight, I felt kinda bad for not walking. For using rain as an excuse to not get out there and walk. I mean, I want to hike a mountain in a year, I got to stop letting roadblocks derail me. I am better than that. I have been through so many obstacles in my life and overcame them in huge ways. How can I let a little rain do this to me? I don’t have an answer for today, but I know that tomorrow I have got to find a way to not let the little things get in my way.
More Non Scale Victories
So, today I had to get gas. Normally I get out of the car and then lean in to pop the gas tank cover. For some reason as I was still in my seat I leaned down and by golly I could reach the switch! Say what!!!! I kinda sat back because I have tried that before and trust me, I was far from being able to reach that darn thing without getting out of the car first. I was a happy girl. Also, I have this issue with my seat belt. The little thing on the belt that keeps your buckle from falling to the floor came off a while back. I normally just grab it before I shut the door because my arm couldn’t fit between the seat and the door when the door is shut. Well today, I was able to fit my arm between the door and my seat and reach that dang buckle. Another happy moment. That means my arms have shrunk at least some!
The Emotional Toll of Weight Loss
You know, losing weight is not all joyous. I have fears. I have failed so many times that it is almost second nature to just assume I am going to fail. Now, I have grown a lot in the last 3 years so those thoughts are fading, but a major change seems to have caused those internal fears to return. It’s like my heart and my brain are at odds again. I mean, you would think that 50 lbs lost would be enough to snap out of it, but if you have ever suffered with depression and/or anxiety you know that it is a process to deal with these type issues. I am aware of it and I just keep reminding myself that I am stronger than ever, I have great, supportive friends, and just my sheer will to finish this journey with that hike to the Y is why I will overcome.
A little off topic, but I want to put something out there. Depression and anxiety are REAL. If you know someone who says they suffer from these afflictions, please know that they need friends. They need support. Please also know that there are so many people in this country that are standing on the ledge of life and it would take very little to push them over the edge. It could be that stressed out mom at the grocery store with screaming kids, it could be that young adult that is having a hard time finding a job, it could be a child who is being bullied at school. It could be anyone you have brief interactions with throughout your normal day and you will never know the positive or negative impact you will have on them based on how you act. What I am trying to say is be kind to EVERYONE and if someone looks like they need someone to talk to, please consider being an ear to listen to them. Kindness would make this world so much better. I have been made fun of for being fat. I used to cry until I learned that those people were not a part of my life and didn’t matter, but not all people are far enough into their journey to be able to look the other way. Let us all spread kindness. You never know what a simple smile could do for someone who is having a bad day! Trust me. I know.