Progress isn’t always moving forward!
I liken progress to practice. In both you are trying to achieve something. Something that will put you on a certain path to that something you want to achieve. Sometimes you are moving forward and sometimes you are moving backwards. Sometimes you could even be stagnant and not moving at all. All of those are OK! Obviously when you are moving forward that is a good thing. That means your practice is yielding progress. When you are stagnant, it is hard not to get frustrated, but think of it as a rest. A moment to glean from all your practicing and all your progressing and time to come up with the next action. Sometimes we need to regroup our thoughts and our minds in order to know what is the next right step. (Thanks to Frozen 2 for that thought!) Sometimes we may have to back up on purpose because one choice maybe wasn’t the right one, but please do not get discouraged. There are still things to learn from taking a misstep.
I heard a story from one of our church leaders. I am going to paraphrase because its a long story. This talk was given by Elder Holland and published in our church magazine for the youth. When he was a young boy his father took him to a surprise trip to the grand canyon when they were close by visiting family. His grandpa gave him and his father a map to help navigate the roads that would get them there and back home. By time they were on their way home they were losing daylight quickly. They came to a fork in the road and were unsure which path to take. They both prayed and both given a distinct impression to take the left fork. They drove for 10 mins to find that it was a dead end. His father quickly turned around and make it back to the fork and went the correct way. Once they were back on familiar roads he asked his father why they both had received revelation to go the wrong way. His father says,
“Matty, I’ve been thinking and silently praying about that same thing all the way home, because I really did feel a very distinct impression to take the road to the left.” I was relieved that my first experience with revelation had a “second witness.” He continued, “The Lord has taught us an important lesson today. Because we were prompted to take the road to the left, we quickly discovered which one was the right one. When we turned around and got on the right road, I was able to travel along its many unfamiliar twists and turnoffs perfectly confident I was headed in the right direction. “If we had started on the right road, we might have driven for 30 minutes or so, become uneasy with the unfamiliar surroundings, and been tempted to turn back. If we had done that, we would have discovered the dead-end so late that it would have been too dark to find our way back in totally unfamiliar territory.”https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/new-era/2005/07/wrong-roads-and-revelation?lang=eng
I love this story. I think of it often when I feel overwhelmed at life taking me down the wrong path, therefore making me feel like I am not progressing. I love the idea that they were happy to take a short trip down the wrong road vs being unsure going down the right road not feeling confident.
Progress is Learning
When we progress and things go well, we learn. We learn what good things to repeat and what not so good things to not repeat. Everything about life is a learning lesson and we should look at our missteps as a learning opportunity. I used to beat myself up for every bad choice I mad in the past. I continued to let those bad choices haunt me and make me feel like my life was miserable. Like I could never do anything right. I have learned through counseling and just growing that we MUST let go of the past. If you or someone brings up a bad choice, ask yourself “Would you make the same choice today?” If your answer is no, then guess what, you learned and progressed. I also have to tell myself that my choices were made with the knowledge that I had at the time. It was the best choice that I could make with what I had. That is the great thing about progressing and learning. If done properly you should not repeat those bad choices. Hang tight, you are doing good. Just keep your eye on the prize and keep working at it. Progress not perfection! Don’t beat yourself up for the choices you made that got you where you are at. Just learn and move on!
Highest Weight 405
Last Weigh In 389.9 (8/6/2020) Total loss of 15.1lbs
Next Goal Weight 384 (8/13/2020)
Exercise Update: I am doing my exercise video 1x per day and walking 20 mins outside. I also find that I am getting in way more steps during the day than I used to. I have been having more energy and about the cleanest apartment that I have ever had!
Surgery is 8 days away! (as of the morning this publishes)